Sometimes, people can come up with answers to a question so gracefully that it sounds like humming. I wish that I am able to reach that level of composure some day.

Jaleesa, Tracye, and I gave the keynote address at the FFTA Conference on Sunday. The audience was so receptive, and I felt my story come to life on that stage in a way that I had never known before. Standing next to them and hearing their stories enlivened me, no matter how often I have heard them in the past few weeks. Every time they tell their stories, I pick up a different emotion that they are trying to convey. Conveying the point with a purpose, not for pity, but for change and hope for the current generation attempting to stand amidst the hardships within foster care.

Additionally, many of the presentations and workshops that we have the privilege of attending are so informing. Maybe these studies would make an impact if given to foster youth themselves. I know, for instance, that sexual exploitation may be defended by some of the young females that are partaking in it, but it would still tug their heart strings, because I know that they wouldn't want their younger siblings to do it. Could that be a way of reaching them, of planting a seed?

FFTA was so kind and gave us passes to Walt Disney World's Magic Kingdom. I was so excited to see Jaleesa's and Trayce's reactions, because they had never been before. This was a gift of magic that most foster children don't get to experience, and it was so special. Thank you FFTA.

Also, thank you for asking questions that provoke my internal dialogue. I felt so stuck in my sibling relationships. I am so worried about my two brothers. I always wondered why I could maintain a relationship with my sister, but my brothers seemed so untouchable. You are helping me explore avenues that I never would have thought existed. It may be too late to fix my own sibling connections, but if I can stop this from happening to someone else that is all that matters.

I feel so uplifted by this group of receptive individuals. I hope that I can provide them with some kind of hope that they help give to me.