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I will never forget my twelfth birthday – on that day, my social worker appeared at my foster home with two trash bags and announced that I was moving. She handed me the bags and said, “You need to pack your things.”

My things. I was hurt because not only did she hand me trash bags, she didn’t even volunteer to help me pack. More than that, I did not own enough things to fill two trash bags. I had no idea why I was moving or where I was going.

It was then that I knew what it meant to be a foster child. It meant I was not worth the time it takes to explain what’s going on; I was not worth owning a real suitcase. That day, I hardened my heart, and carried feelings of worthlessness with me for many years after. I spent eleven years in North Carolina’s foster care system, moving more than a dozen times during this period.

I had a unique transition from foster care -- I left the system at age twenty-one; but my last foster mother had been so amazing that I could not fathom the thought of life without her. She was the best mother anyone could ask for. She went to all my games and held parties for my senior prom and high school graduation. She adopted me when I was twenty-three years old. Today, I look at her and feel so blessed.

I still wish that I had had a stable family when I was growing up. Foster children get used to changing schools often, but if I had a family, I would have never had to leave the school I loved and all my friends. After I left that school, I attended three others. When I finally returned my senior year, I had been gone so long my friends did not even recognize me. I had to work extra hard to make friends again.

I am one of the lucky ones. Now that I have a family of my own, I do not worry as much about the things such as where my next meal is coming from, where I will sleep tonight, and other things that most youths take for granted. Having a family is something I would like to share with other foster youth.

As an author and advocate for foster care reform, Julia speaks powerfully about her experiences in foster care and the need for change.

Mar 11, 2009 By FC Steve


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CNunez09 said:

That’s tough stuff
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amckinne said:

We need to listen to our youth and also the foster parents who spend the majority of time with the youth.
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gkjackjr1 said:

This is amazing and I'm glad you got what was needed for you in the end.
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joyce7m said:

Belonging to a decent circle of permanent family is what should ultimately be the outcome of all foster children. It is an important element which can contribute positively to the making of young adults' own family when they grow out of the foster system, We can only thank GOD for each and every positive outcome like this.
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Anonymous (not verified) said:

I am glad that even at 23 you wanted to be adopted! That is what love does it teaches you what family is all about. It's not about the money or things, but love the mose precious commodity that we own, time comes in second. But why is it so diffuclt to become a Foster Parent, their should be a streamline process for the good parent to become recruited and maintaine for these older children. I love you story, keep up the good work!

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Anonymous (not verified) said:

being a foster parent has had it's ups and downs for me. I have tried to take care of each of MY KIDS as if I gave them birth but i have had some that seemed the more i tried to love them the more they hated me but God gave me three beautiful girls (I adopted) to love along with my one birth daughter I thank God daily for these blessings

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gailfrost (not verified) said:

When you hear a story like this your heart goes out to them and you want to hug them so tight that they cant breeth. I'm so glad that someone loved her enough that she can talk about her life with others...